i really don't feel like letting go any subjects.. bt i dunno what to do. i'm hopeless i keep falling each time falling deeper. i'm sick of it. even i feel pityful what will ppl think of me? i dunno whatever i am turning out to be, a useless trash monster. only qualifications count i hate being weaker. i cn nvr reach out to the sky.the day i dropped i knew i couldn't go back. i wish i cn crawl over this..

i'll live with it i need to grow up

i wanna be a joker person like callist i wanna be an outgoing person like charmian i wanna be a funny talkative person like wantheng i wanna be a creative fun person like evon i wanna be a cheerful crazy person like yiling i wanna be a brave warm person like xinhui
someone nt afraid to fight daring straight forward i wanna be able to defend ppl able to shout argue bad ppl. i wanna be strong, i need to be bash up i learn things the hard way. that way i'll learn right? in tough conditions..

i wish time wuld stop so that i can be able to be sec4 always.. sometimes i think i'm such a selfish person so i keep trying to be someone i shut up i talk too much i"m so monstrous. i can't am i trying way too hard? leona is normal i'm no longer emotional or extremly happy i'm just normal. is that the word? i'm always so stuck with words

bitch or not i'll survive i just wish each day i can live a fulfilling day being in sch is fulfilling i'll be stronger i must praying hard whatever it is i'll find my way out of this o level maze i need self control n power where are u... for many reasons i must!

i wish to be the happiest person on earth, i wish to be better , i wish to study hard i guess. i'm not losing myself anymore i'm no longer lost i hope i'll be able to do it. we all fall short of glory one day maybe i'll be able to live a better life if i just work harder i'll nvr forgt nvr regret i will live my life i think the song lyrics are nice. i'm closer to the edge i love 30 seconds to mars

today i'm so overjoyed! i won a medal! i dun think i wuld gt, cuz relay gt cancelled. n last yr the only medal i won was frm the relay i ran with callist, wantheng n yiling! oh man i miss running with them :( running with them makes me feel too attached to them esp when we gt first last yr! i didn think of tht til nw.. haha sometimes u don't appreciate what u hav until its too late! i regret nt being ther, n saying hw proud n overjoyed i am over it. is it too late? i really do. bt tis yr the relay i'm looking forward to most is gone. today farhanah n yiling ran so super fast. happiness jeslin gt 3 medals wow! SHE ROCKS MAN! oh shina shina too! 4e1 won the relay! :D wantheng won 2nd! callist won 2 medals tooo! haha today the weather was great too! our flag was beautiful it matches our shirt! they put in so much effort! mrs li talk to me abt my medal wow she's so nicee! i love her! yiling zakiah,evon,minwei ran for the girl's relay! haha woooooohooooooooo! n we went to eat pizza hut! coach was soo generous she treated us pizza hut THAANK YOUU SO MUCH!!! SHE'S THE NICEST COACH EVER!! i talked to e3 girls today they were all so sweet nice ppl :D xinhui gt lost coming hg stadium ahhaha damn joke sia she!! she's always so weird n special! haha jannah was so super funny n cheerful today :D